tie up.

fire

i touch the pace where i'd fine your face,
my finger in creases of distant dark places



after i have travelled so far,
we'd set the fire to the third bar,
we'd share each other like an island,
until exhausted, close our eyelids,
and dreaming,
pick up from the last place we left off,
your soft skin is weeping,
a joy you can't keep in.

"Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid."

housing.

Moving out is finally official and I am extremely excited. The house/apartment hunting has begun! Here are some home-loves...

I love enclosed spaces, this nook looks like the most amazing hide away.

Everything about this picture makes my heart smile, so peaceful.
I want to be this in the middle of nature...
This is like a dream apartment life. I LOVE this picture so much.

Insane, that is all.

I need twigs as bed posts.

tegan [... nineteen]

"This next song really is about how you can meet someone and think how you could be with them forever..."

"I know that I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing."

rawr

you're my wish and i'm sad

don't tell me nothing matters.
i'll tell you what matters.
bare feet in the summer,
open windows at night.
you think that no one needs you,
you have nothing to see through,
well i need you.
i need you.
don't i count in this fight?

t&s

(fav)

thought suppression

Thought Suppression: The attempt to avoid thinking about something we would just as soon forget.

This depends on two processes: (1) monitoring processing; an automatic process of searching for evidence that the unwanted thought is about to intrude on our consciousness, and (2) operating processing; a relatively conscious process attmept to distract oneself by finding something else to think about after the unwanted thought is detected.

The monitoring process continues to find instances of the unwanted thought, which then intudes on consciousness unchecked by the control process. A state of hyperaccessibility results, in which the unwanted thought occurs in high frequency. The irony is that when we are trying our hardest not to think about something, those thoughts are especially likely to pop into our minds.

19

i felt you in my life before i ever thought to.

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."

c. klosterman

"There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else; they're often just the person you happened to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

love taught me to lie

there's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth,
there's still a little bit of you laced iwth my doubt,
it's still a little hard to say what's going on.

there's still a little bit of your ghost, your witness,
there's still a little big of your face i haven't kissed,
you step a little closer each day,
that i can't say what's going on.

stone's taught me to fly,
love, it taught me to lie,
life, it taught me to die,
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball.

there's still a litte bit of your song in my ear,
there's still a little bit of your words i long to hear,
you step a little closer to me,
so close that i can't see what's going on.

stones taught me to fly,
love taught be to lie,
life taught me to die,
so its not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball.

stones taught me to fly,
love, it taught me to cry,
so come on courage, teach me to be shy,
'cause its not hard to fall,
and i don't want to scare her,
it's not hard to fall,
and i don't want to lose,
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know

i'm the risk you didn't take.

freud

"Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But the one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within."

just words

Don't worry, he'll miss you.
You're the best he could get and he blew it.
He screwed up, and you did absoluely nothing wrong.
You gave him your heart and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't.
And honestly, he's not mature enough.
He's not smart enough.
If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you in every spare second he could.
But he didn't, and how he's gone.
But don't you cry.
Don't call him telling him you miss him.
Don't IM him, don't message him, don't comment on him, don't takl to him in the hallways.
Just pretend you don't care.
And don't be suprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake.
And if you want to go, go with him again.
But make him work for you.
Don't be his doormat.
Don't let him in the first time he rings the bell.
Make him come back everyday until you trust him enough.
If he doesn't come back after a couple of tries, just let him go.
But if he comes back everyday, then he's worth it.
Trust me.
He's worth it.


I read these words and instantly connected, it is so true. If you are with someone who wouldn't do anything to be with you at the end of the day it just isn't worth it.

are you dreaming

say what you say, i am listening, i am all ears,
but if you still believe i'm thinking of you
you are dreaming, yeah you are dreaming.

neytiri

Best movie ever, can't wait for the next one. Hopefully another post with more images to come because 97% of this movie was stunning and incredible.

hot

Do you remember 3rd rock from the sun? I do, I miss it.

It

took
me
a
really
long
time
to
realize
they
were
siblings.

a year from now...

you were a priority, was i an option?

tonight

watch my back so i'll make sure
you're right behind me as before,
yesturday, the night before, tomorrow

dry my eyes so you won't know,
dry my eyes so i won't show,
i know you're right behind me

and don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight

you walk the surface of this town,
the high heels above the ground,
and the high horses that we know
keep us safe until the night

you know them all, i know it all
stay put and play along,
'cause i'm looking for my friend,
not i got you, got you

don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight

i dry my eye, dry my eye,
fall deeper by the hour,
dry my eye,
dry my eye, dry my eye,
don't let me fall deep now,
dry my eye

yeah,
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
...

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I think this is pretty inspirational, though it is exactly what I do most of the time.

Perfect.

I need to remember this. Then again, I need to do the opposite - all at once.

Passage from "Looking for Alaska", it sounds beautiful, might just be a summer read.

This is what I mean, I feel like a lot of people have let me down only because I cared too much.

When you care about someone you start to develop expectations, with that comes being let down. I was reminiscing on old times with old friends, it's mostly heartbreaking, remembering the good times at least, when I loved people so much and didn't worry about anything else. All those people are gone now. I know I am better without them, if I wasn't, they would still be here. I can't help miss it though, or them. I wish people would of tried harder for me when it mattered.

feist

and i don't need to know your favourite artists name,
and i don't need to know what woman's felt the same,
and i don't need to see you every single day,
but i'd like to.

and i don't need to know the details of your past,
and i don't need to know when you thought of me last,
and i would have to say if i'm the sail then you're the mast,
and we've caught a good wind, the mast.