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Just 4 small little post secrets.

Lost. It's been a "short" but intense road. I watched 4.5 seasons in about 2 months... this entire secret speaks to me, not in the best way.

This is sad and I hope it brings enlightenment to all stupid boys, becuase as a girl the whole asshole thing gets old way too fast.

This is just very adorable, my bff's are amazing and honestly the people I know I can rely on right now really comfort me.

I just love this, that simple. I hope I am shaping people into better people too.

the beatles

The Beatles are my love so I thought I would look at their love...


Paul McCartney & Linda Eastman

George Harrison & Patti Boyd
(These ones are absolutely stunning...)

(Just Patti Boyd)

John Lennon & Yoko Ono

"Ringo Star" & Maureen Cox

hopefully more to come...

heathers

discovered through facebook creeping people's links. hard to find their music, i've been reading lyrics...

remember when we thought we'd known each other all our lives?
those are the types that you can never really lose,
and when you fell into a trap,
i knew you more than you knew you.

if i could turn back time and fix all my mistakes,
would everything be better,
or would is stay the same cause life's full of them anyway.

and i'm too small to be your friend,
i don't live up to the standards that you expect,
please don't fret i won't try it again,
i won't look back at how things were before.

heartbeats, in sync with the clock,
in time with my steps,
buried in my chest.

there's nothing i can give to you,
you'll take it as it is and turn it into a tragedy.

i need help to carry on
and get through this mess that i'm working on

and everything was clearly there,
but it wasn't for her.

if the walls fell down would you build them back,
though he promised again that he'd surely attack.

just me.

classic survey,
have you ever smoked weed out of anything other than a joint/bong/pipe?
yes.
where is the last place you had an itch?
my neck is rather itchy today..
what bothers you most about your computer?
uhh probably how my touch volume freezes everything.
if you jumped off the roof how much pain would you be in?
probably a lot becuase i am a wuss.
if you were to get into a fight fist with the person you hate would you win?
it's unlikely. i am weak.
what do you like most about your age?
that fact that it is my prime year... and i can drink in public.
what is your favourite song right now?
here is a heart by jenny owen youngs.
how many characters does your phone allow per text?
140. it's not enough sometimes, i like to write detailed short story.
five things you can grab from where you are sitting?
oceanography text, my cell, tv controller, sleep well spray, bobby pins.
five things that terrify you?
becoming very ill, death in general, getting my heart broken again in competition with never getting married, killing insects, losing a family member/close friend.
five things to put in a trap if i wanted to catch you?
starbucks iced tea lemonade, weed, my camera, a sub, my laptop.
last thing to eat/drink/hear/watch/buy?
apples, chocolate milk, jenny owen youngs, cougar town, redbull with vodka.
last five movies you watched?
couples retreat, paranormal activity, some comedian, FUCK i can't remember, obviously i need to watch more...
last five shows you watched?
cougar town, the office, americas next top model, the simpsons, family guy.
five things that start with j?
jacket, jump, juice, jam, japan.
five amazing things in your room?
my floral bed sheets, my pet plant, my canon camera, my exercise thing, my big comfy chair.
five things you are addicted to?
tea, flickr, pea soup, facebook, televison.
five things you want right now?
inner peace, the office on dvd, pea soup, to drop 5 pounds, hocus pocus.
five shows you have seen every episode of?
veronica mars, dead like me, nip/tuck, the oc, skins, ... this is embarassing.

best quote ever.

There are always those kinds of moments in life
that are magical and perfect,
but they never last.
Then you go on,
but they've always left something with you.

family.

This is my inspiration blog but I thought I would share some pictures from my birthday weekend. My family inpires me, so does being 19 :)

My brother and I.

My two brothers, sister in law and I.

My brothers and I rocking out.
My sister in law and I.

My oldest brother and I.

My lovely mother and I.
My brother and I, cam-whoring.
My sister, brother in law and I.
My sister in law and I.

My sister and I.
Muff diving
Tequila
Pouting, just cause I can.

My sister and I.

here is a heart

One of the most moving songs I have ever heard.


here is a heart,
here is a heart,
i made it for you, so take it.
battered and braised,
grilled and sauteed,
just like you like it, like it.
you know i like to fill you up.

blood of my blood,
dripping with love.
i bring you a thing you need most.
silent between supplies and machines.
i hang in the corners like a ghost,
you know i live to be seen through.

no better way that i can see
to spend all the time while your alseep,
when holding your hands inside of mine,
mmm,
i wanna be here and nowhere else,
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.

sleep like the dead,
through the noise in your head
while monitors click
and whirr and glow.
i'm with you all day,
and i still would stay
tomorrow and onward,
just this close
you know i live to keep you safe, oh.

no better way that i can see
to spend all the time while you're asleep,
when holding your hands inside of mine,
i wanna be here and nowhere else.
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.

i can't explain it.
but i have to try,
if you exaporate,
the seas will rise
'til they devour the sky.

here is a heart,
here is a heart,
i made it for you, so take it.
battered and braised,
grilled and sauteed.
just how you like it, like it.

no bettwe way i can see
to spend all my time while you're asleep,
while holding your hands inside of mine,
i wanna be here and nowhere else.
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.