why can't it be?
no two people
feel the same way
at the same time?

weeping willow won't you wallow louder

before the yerning song of flesh on flesh, young hearts burst open wounds bleed fresh.
i guess i'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse, and to wake up half empty, only to be filled again with mourning, he's my evil shadow dove.

oh, i'm just afall leaf something simple and shy like that. that's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk, like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons. i sit and entertain the bisarro ghosts of my soul. his name still lingers, maybe lactates on my tongue. perhaps i'm just teething for a foreign fall destiny.

remember all the subordinate feelings i cast aside, maybe i lied when i said i was okay.
i don't mean to close the door, but for the record my heart is sore. you blew through me like bullet holes, left stains on my sheets and stains on my soul. you left me broke down beggin' for change.

f of the c

I recently bought Flight of the Conchords season 1 on DVD and now I am going to appreciate how much I like them...
bret you got it going on
business time
if you're into it

Bret McKenzie, this is a screen cap from a concert, he has no beard and you can see his insane hottness.
Here they both are, cute.

i have a few words for you.

I really connect with images of words, I don't k now why but here are "some" good ones..

I have no idea where these words came from, I searched and all i could find were blogs of it written over and over.. I hope to one day find out.
Soon enough I am going to make a new years post, this just makes me think of my resolution of living in the moment. I really don't many to have regrets of holding important things back... which is extremely possible becuase I am very.... introverted, that it's the right word but yeah.

All these words just seem incredible beautiful.

Again with the live in the moment.

My biggest fear in thinking about my future and love and marriage and a husband is loosing the love that is going to bring us together, that is why I want to be with someone great who really doesn't want to ever loose sight of it either.

This is so fucking amazing. I really really like this one. As tegan and Sara can be quoted, "and when i wake up i want life to be a surprise" - I want to learn to live wildly and love endlessly.

Yes.

This is kind of hularious, to me - because I can relate and it is sad. I need to stop that, tsk, tsk.

This applies to most of the people from my past, I think I am an intense person becuase the people I care about mean so much and we either stay close or fall apart. I miss a lot of people I had intense relationships with in the past and had them end abruptly. I get over it, move on and grow but... the memories are still there.

EXACTLY.

I am being a sap tonight and enjoying my own commentary.

I have only been realizing in the last couple of weeks how much I want to travel. I know so little of the world and I can't wait until I finish school, I really want to experience it wildly and carelessly (in a good way) with a really close friend/s.

Yeah, that feeling sucks but it's good to know how to feel it in the first place.

I like the optimism, bring on 2010.

If this was real I would be okay with it, I love kissing people I love when they are upset and I love getting hugged all the time. I also love spiders being killed for me.

I would also like to meet you.

pt II

i'd like a flat white,
a day of pale skies,
and a real kiss.

and of course i wanna know you better,
but you know the way it goes.

living in that chest is a big, big heart,
one i've known from the very start.

-

these silent offerings, they're only causing,
oh darling, i was never free for the taking,
we had everything from time to time,
yeah,
we had everything.

-

you see these red wine lips?
i didn't dream up this,
out on suburban curbs,
i'm always restless first,
but when the truth is told;
we're all dreamers, you know.
i've always more than i could ever hold.

remember we had it all?
every belle and ball,
but just all ever,
i wanted more.

but i hope one fine day i'll stop looking back.

-

nothing is nothing and i know that.

you are a good sign that now is a good time.

-

sometimes your love,
it's so pretty i just wanna sink in,
and sometimes your heart,
well, it's so pretty i just wanna live there.

sometimes your love is so quiet i don't even need to speak,
sometimes your heart is so loud i can't even hear the beat.

-

and my heart leaps out of its bars,
will tomorrow be much worse?
is this love a blessing or a curse?
and all i know,
is that i, i'll never let you go.

-

well stars seem to shine,
even when the clouds are fare,
and it's not alright and i envy their consistency,
it seems so priceless, in the fight.

well the light it flickers now and then,
but overall i would say you are my friend,
when you say go,
i say slow.

new music

New music finds are always amazing! Me and my best friend went to the movies tonight and saw A Christmas Carol (yay for being festive as shit) and was an amazing girl singing in a bell commerical. Her name is Lisa Mitchell and she is amazingly adorable.

i like the way that you talk,
i like the way that you walk,
it's hard to recreate such an individual game.

you wait your turn in the quene,
you say your sorries and thank you's,
i don't think you're ever a hundred percent in the room.

-

these are the days and the nights,
at these sweet humbling heights,
and i know it used to be home.

well whisk me away,
i'll be yours for a day,
in heavenly fields we can roam.

you're my clean white love,
what are you doing? what are you doing?
what are you doing to me?
what are you doing to my head?
woah oh oh, you're my clean white love,
woah oh oh, you're too clean white love,
i gave my heart on the morning of november 6th,
oh everybody's looking for a fix.

-

do you have a dollar for me?
do you have a house on a hill and a bed for three?
oh, do you have a story?
do you have a story for me?
do you know the one where we'll all live happily?

do you have a dollar for me?
maybe just an hour or two and a pot of tea.

do you have a memory for me?
tell me about the days when you were seventeen?

do you have a dollar for me?
have you got a little old house and a lemon tree?

do you have a reason for me?
can i be the girl that you met?

-

how do you feel about being lovely?
said one to the other,
she said:
darling, darling it's alright.
she said:
darling, darling it's ok, and i'll see you when you get here.

how do you feel about being alive?
said one to the other,
and how do you feel about being lost?
said one to the other.

-

everyone wanted to be her,
she chose her friends as carefully as she chose her words,
she was so sure about it all.

tea-leaves in the cup,
you're a good friend of mine,
how the sober are thirsty for the sweet wine,
now that stevie has locked her keys in her mind,
got to open up, lay herself on the line.

why can't you see,
oh, give in to me.

-

a better world but it's not like it matters.

what is it about morning light that makes everything feel alright,
alright yeah,
because it feels like i have just woke up
in a world where down is up
and up is a long way from here.

new moon.

I did indeed watch the movie - whatever - the soundtrack is pretty fucking amazing though...


so tell me when you hear my heart stop,
you're the only one who knows,
tell me when you hear my silence,
there's a possibility i wouldn't know.

tell me when you hear me fallin',
there's a possiblity it wouldn't show.

-

i'm a satellite heart,
lost in the dark.
i'm spun out so far, you stop i start,
but i'll be true to you.

you know i haven't slept in weeks,
you're the only thing i see.

-

aren't we just terrified?
shale, screen your worry from what you won't ever find.

won't let you talk me down,
will put it taut, nothing let out.

-

we're doing wrong,
we've all done wrong,
if we do no wrong,
i'm sure we would be gone.

-

you say "come touch me"
but you're always out of reach.

your arms are lovely,
yellow and rose,
your back's a meadow,
covered in snow.

in the dark you tell me of a flower,
the only blooms in the violet hour.

and now you're sitting upon your chair,
you've got me tangled up inside your beautiful black hair.

-

all of the astronauts, champagne in plastic cups,
waiting for the big hero to show,
outside the door he stands,
his head in his hands and his heart in his throat.

someone once told me...

This is a nice website.

Today I was in need of a little cheer, it is funny how one person's actions can deeply impact your emotions. It is also funny how one person can bring nothing but absolute pain and misery to your life, you can fully acknowledge it but still be effected. I give one of my best friends grief for loving love all the time but it's a great thing, to believe in love. I mean that is what we all want isn't it? All consuming, uncontrollable, raw love.

This website makes me want to have faith in people while being smart.

I obviously find inspiration in anything true, heartbreaking, romantic, hopeful or joyous.