just me.

classic survey,
have you ever smoked weed out of anything other than a joint/bong/pipe?
yes.
where is the last place you had an itch?
my neck is rather itchy today..
what bothers you most about your computer?
uhh probably how my touch volume freezes everything.
if you jumped off the roof how much pain would you be in?
probably a lot becuase i am a wuss.
if you were to get into a fight fist with the person you hate would you win?
it's unlikely. i am weak.
what do you like most about your age?
that fact that it is my prime year... and i can drink in public.
what is your favourite song right now?
here is a heart by jenny owen youngs.
how many characters does your phone allow per text?
140. it's not enough sometimes, i like to write detailed short story.
five things you can grab from where you are sitting?
oceanography text, my cell, tv controller, sleep well spray, bobby pins.
five things that terrify you?
becoming very ill, death in general, getting my heart broken again in competition with never getting married, killing insects, losing a family member/close friend.
five things to put in a trap if i wanted to catch you?
starbucks iced tea lemonade, weed, my camera, a sub, my laptop.
last thing to eat/drink/hear/watch/buy?
apples, chocolate milk, jenny owen youngs, cougar town, redbull with vodka.
last five movies you watched?
couples retreat, paranormal activity, some comedian, FUCK i can't remember, obviously i need to watch more...
last five shows you watched?
cougar town, the office, americas next top model, the simpsons, family guy.
five things that start with j?
jacket, jump, juice, jam, japan.
five amazing things in your room?
my floral bed sheets, my pet plant, my canon camera, my exercise thing, my big comfy chair.
five things you are addicted to?
tea, flickr, pea soup, facebook, televison.
five things you want right now?
inner peace, the office on dvd, pea soup, to drop 5 pounds, hocus pocus.
five shows you have seen every episode of?
veronica mars, dead like me, nip/tuck, the oc, skins, ... this is embarassing.

best quote ever.

There are always those kinds of moments in life
that are magical and perfect,
but they never last.
Then you go on,
but they've always left something with you.

family.

This is my inspiration blog but I thought I would share some pictures from my birthday weekend. My family inpires me, so does being 19 :)

My brother and I.

My two brothers, sister in law and I.

My brothers and I rocking out.
My sister in law and I.

My oldest brother and I.

My lovely mother and I.
My brother and I, cam-whoring.
My sister, brother in law and I.
My sister in law and I.

My sister and I.
Muff diving
Tequila
Pouting, just cause I can.

My sister and I.

here is a heart

One of the most moving songs I have ever heard.


here is a heart,
here is a heart,
i made it for you, so take it.
battered and braised,
grilled and sauteed,
just like you like it, like it.
you know i like to fill you up.

blood of my blood,
dripping with love.
i bring you a thing you need most.
silent between supplies and machines.
i hang in the corners like a ghost,
you know i live to be seen through.

no better way that i can see
to spend all the time while your alseep,
when holding your hands inside of mine,
mmm,
i wanna be here and nowhere else,
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.

sleep like the dead,
through the noise in your head
while monitors click
and whirr and glow.
i'm with you all day,
and i still would stay
tomorrow and onward,
just this close
you know i live to keep you safe, oh.

no better way that i can see
to spend all the time while you're asleep,
when holding your hands inside of mine,
i wanna be here and nowhere else.
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.

i can't explain it.
but i have to try,
if you exaporate,
the seas will rise
'til they devour the sky.

here is a heart,
here is a heart,
i made it for you, so take it.
battered and braised,
grilled and sauteed.
just how you like it, like it.

no bettwe way i can see
to spend all my time while you're asleep,
while holding your hands inside of mine,
i wanna be here and nowhere else.
rationing off bits of myself,
so i can crumble at your side.

http://pttrdy.livejournal.com/

before i die i want to know i lived.

before i die i also want to date this guy:

tegan and sara

new album sainthood.

hell
i know you feel it too, these words get over used when
we get up and over it and over them

get ahead, get her hand and bring her with you

on directing
make those eyes at me,
i lose my grip, i lose my focus

red belt
my hands tied around these words,
i wish you'd call but i know that you're out tonight

you have a tendency to rush back to your past,
slow it down,
you transfer all your weight and disappear

the cure
begging like you might
take order in your own hands,
i stare, seems like i don't care,
drap a change in your handstand

seems silly to you now,
all i said to you,
all i did for you,
seems so silly to me now

i know the world's been mean to you,
i've got a cure, hold tight,
i know the world's not fair to you

all i dreamed of,
all that seemed like luck,
seems silly to you know

northshore
don't feel,
don't tear,
don't kiss,
don't care,
don't touch,
don't want me

don't breathe,
don't try,
don't find me

don't know,
don't go,
don't leave me

don't sing,
don't talk,
don't yell,
don't laugh,
don't think,
don't speak,
don't save me

alligator
sensitive, it's true,
alligator tears cried over you

relentless,
yes, it's true,
my motor mouth it runs over you

the ocean
all around me new love, and it makes me sad
all around me feeling sure that you'll be back

stop worrying over nothing,
stop worrying over me

so, it's been so long since you said,
"well, i know what i want and
what i want is right here with you"

sentimental tune
hard-hearted, don't worry i'm ready for a fight
unnerved, the nerve, you're nervous, nervous that i'm right

with a bit of friction i'll be under your clothes,
with a bit of focus i'll be under your skin,
now you know you know it now

someday
and love's not worthless,
you've got to step up, stranger

might write something i want to say to you someday,
might do something i'd be proud of someday

i don't want to know you don't want me,
i don't want to know what you do without me,
i don't want to know what i'll be without you

audrey kawasaki

paramore

These are my favourite parts from the new album brand new eyes by paramore.


misguided ghosts
we all learn to make mistakes and run from them

but now i'm told that this is life,
and pain is just a simple compromise
so we can get what we want out of it

would someone care to classify,
a broken heart and twisted mind,
so i can find someone to rely on

the ones we trusted the most pushed us far away,
and there's no one road,
and we should not be the same

all i wanted
and when the world treats you way too fairly,
well, it's a shame i'm a dream

i could follow you to the beginning,
just to relive the start,
and maybe then we'll remember to slow down,
and all our favourite parts

the only exception
love never lasts and we've got to find other ways
to make it alone or keep a straight face

up until now i have sworn to myself that
i'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk, but,
you are the only exception

in the morning, when you wake up,
leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

you are the only exception and i'm on my way to believing

painfully romantic

words

new blog

Holler.

I made a new blog, take it in. This is going to be my "inspire" blog...